Let us not grow weary in doing well, for if we faint not, we shall reap a harvest. Galatians 6:7
In the Greek, the word weary means be utterly spiritless; exhausted
The word faint means to have one’s strength relaxed, to be enfeebled through exhaustion, to grow weak, grow weary, be tired out, to loose or set free.
This is going to be a bit transparent, but it is my hope that my raw honesty will help someone else.
About five years ago, I went through a dark, desert season, and I wrote about it. It lasted for about eighteen months. In that time, the Lord completely dismantled who I thought I was supposed to be. It was very difficult, but very freeing and worth it. Then I had a short reprieve.
Just when you think you’ve arrived at your destination, you realize, that life is a continual journey. We are to continually grow and mature in the things of God as He takes us from glory to glory! (2 Cor 3:18)
2017 was a tough year! There were many battles and much warfare. I was so happy to see 2018 come! Even though I didn’t know anything about 2018, there is something about finishing a year and beginning a new one. It always releases hope for me. The Lord told me in 2017 to increase thankfulness in my life and I did. Increasing thankfulness CHANGED MY LIFE!
So in 2018, when He told me to increase honor in my life, I was on it! He will only always give us good things to do. Increasing honor has brought change to not only me, but others. It has taught me lessons and caused me to remember and to value things that often get put in the background.
However, 2018 has been tough! Even tougher than 2017! It’s like the book we read in high school that said – It was the best of times, it was the worst of times….. this describes 2018 perfectly!
Early in January, a friend who lives in another state called me and said she had a word from the Lord for me. She said – “The Lord is going to show you the extent of His faithfulness to you this year.”
I was like YES! She said to remember that and I have. Then one day a couple months ago, I was declaring that and it dawned on me….the extent of His faithfulness……that means there needs to be an extent – or a reason! Uh oh! And while my relationship with the Lord has grown and increased, so has the warfare. I have learned things this year that make me wonder why I couldn’t see them before! And I have fallen deeper in love with Jesus. The best of times, the worst of times.
One example is in January the Lord impressed upon us to sell our home. So we immediately went about getting our house ready to sell in the spring and in early May I put it for sale online. Two months later I was frustrated and shared that with a gal at my church. I said – “the Lord told us to sell, so what is the deal?”
She said, “Did He say it was time?”
I said “He told me to sell!”
She said, “Yes, but is it time?” And actually, it made me a bit angry. (first clue!)
Here we are over five months later, and my house still has not sold. I have come to understand, that it is truly about HIS timing and I did, in fact, neglect to ask His timing. I heard sell and hopped right on it instead of seeking out His timing. (lesson learned!)
This is just ONE of the many battles I have faced this year. We’ve had health issues, that have also added to financial issues, car issues and wrecks. And then there are always relationship dynamics in life. People come and people go, people hurt you and people forget you. People take you wrong and misunderstand you, or take another person’s perspective and fail to get yours, and then it’s just a cycle of nonsense. People can be hurtful. UGH! There are a myriad of feelings, issues, and perspectives we all deal with on a daily basis. Oh if we could extend more grace to each other! But, that’s a whole other subject!
So, the other day I heard something in my thoughts and I arrested it almost immediately. It was this: “Every time I get to the end, someone moves the finish line.” Now, let me tell you, that is enough to make anyone grow weary! How will you ever take ground like that? But, I said – NO, I refuse this! And then Jeremiah 29:11 came to me – For I know the thoughts that I think toward you, saith the LORD, thoughts of peace, and not of evil, to give you an expected end. And I literally said out loud “I submit myself to Jeremiah 29:11 – there will be an expected end and I resist the devil and the lies of moving the finish line!” (According to James, 4:7)
There is an EXPECTED END. As long as I am following God, there is an expected end to this that I am walking through. And as I looked up the word expected in the Greek – I was pleasantly surprised as it means “things hoped for” or “expectation”. Plans to give me what I am hoping for at the end – a definite place, finish! There is a definite finish line to each situation!!!!
So, now what? Battle after battle can become wearisome! Or battles fighting several battles all at once! Right? We must find joy. Nehemiah 8:10 says the joy of the Lord is our strength. It literally means “the gladness of Jehovah is your protection, safety, refuge and stronghold.”
What exactly is the joy of the Lord? The Bible says that Jesus endured the cross for the “joy that was set before Him” – what was that joy? The reconciliation to us. He endured the process, the cross, the battle because He knew that His Father would give Him His expected end. The joy of the Lord is simply believing He is going to do what He said He would do. If we truly believe that, we will and can endure whatever life throws our way.
In a nutshell – keep your eyes on Jesus. Focus on His word. Live according to His ways. When you do this, you will have joy, which will produce strength. Strength will keep you from growing weary, strength will get you to your expected end!
God is showing the extent of His faithfulness to me – and He will do the same for you. We will endure our cross for the joy set before us….. which is our EXPECTED end. Our job is to simply trust Him and endure for the joy of the Lord – the fact that Our God will do what He said He would do, is our joy, and that joy is our strength!